I’m alive.

Looked in the mirror, felt like crying.

I’m still alive.  

2016 was kinda all over the place.  Best thing first: I got married to the man of my dreams.  Our wedding was incredible–might pic spam some shots later.  Our honeymoon was perfect…despite missing our flight out lol.  Married life is good and not much different than engaged life.  I don’t usually gush about my relationship but I’m so so lucky.  He’s smart, handsome, generous and respectful.  I couldn’t ask for more.

Worst thing was my Grandma dying in August.  I travelled to see her a month before she passed & even that hard.  Gone was the loud, vivacious woman I’ve known all my life.  In her place was a frail woman who didn’t recognize me any more but pretended that she did.  We released pink balloons in the cemetery; it was her favorite color.  

Regina and I aren’t friends any more and I’m better for it.  I didn’t even cry or feel sad and that kinda surprised me.  Shouldn’t I feel sad that an almost 10 year friendship is gone?  I just mainly feel relief.  If a person is not enriching my life, what’s the point? She has a lot of issues and I don’t wish bad things on her or anything.  We went through a bunch of shit together–Richie’s death was maybe why I felt that I had to endure our “friendship.”  Like, because we both knew this person and cared for him that we owed it to him to stay bonded.  In the end, it wasn’t enough and we are just two different people.  She’s a selfish, bitter and vapid person and that is what gives her energy so more power to her.  I’m just trying to make my way through life and cutting off the dead weight helps me breath easier.  C’est la vie!

Husband just got a promotion at work.  We are thrilled.  Oh!  &we also placed 3rd in our company’s Chili Cook Off lol.  So nerdy.  But all in all, 2017 is off to a good start.  We have a trip coming up in March that we are really looking forward to.  We are going to the Game of Thrones: Live Concert Experience. We already AirBnB’d a place.  Can’t wait for our next getaway.

Until next time or next year.

I still exist.